I've been taking this reflection series slowly leading into this upcoming week. Tomorrow the spring semester kicks off here at CCU for us Res Life folks, and I've been really intentional about getting into a good frame of mind as I reenter the world of Student Affairs. Something Lara Casey says very frequently is that there's nothing magical about January 1st, and I have to say that I agree. As my new year doesn't REALLY kick off until tomorrow, I'm perfectly okay with taking this reflection process slowly. That being said, here are my thoughts for part 2 of Lara Casey's goal setting series.
- Step 4: If I stopped chasing "perfect," how will my life change? I will listen more, slow down, be less PRIDEFUL (gosh, wouldn't that be wonderful?!), savor all of the good stuff that matters, do more with less, spend more time in the quiet moments that He's provided me, have less clutter, and find myself back in and involved with a church. That last one is the biggest part for me. I absolutely loved the church I found during college (It was my home church, and the staff and people and community and overall feel of that wonderful space felt like home. It's where I found Jesus and was baptized, too!), and it's been really hard for me to find anything that has felt like that perfect of a fit again. I found a church that I enjoyed in grad school, but it wasn't quite as great as the community I had gotten involved with in college, so it never truly felt like home. Since moving to SC, I've felt really separated from the community that results from His presence, and because of this I haven’t tried as hard as I should to find a church. After working all week, I never seem to be able to find the energy to get out of bed on Sunday mornings to go try out a different church. However, if I stopped chasing “perfect” I would be way less exhausted, and not only would I have the energy to go church searching, I would also look forward to doing so again. That makes this a priority for me!
- Step 5: What hasn’t worked in 2015? Not making connections and isolating myself. As an introvert, it’s really hard for me to go out of my way to meet new people and interject myself into new surroundings. Since moving, I haven’t put myself out there as much. Also, not talking about my feelings, comparison, and worrying… about everything were also some things that didn’t work so well this year. I’ve also had a lack of faith this year, particularly in His grace. It’s HARD to accept something that you haven’t earned.
- Step 6: Who helped cultivate what matters this past year? My mother! Also my Daddy-o. Madeline, Christine, and Mandy, three of my most favorite people from college. Kaitlyn and Elaine and LaFarin and Gabe from grad school. Jay and Rocken here in South Carolina. And last but certainly not least, SAWYER! My adorable and precious pup who makes everything in life seem a bit brighter. :)
Once I get the next part of my reflections in some semblance of coherent thought, I will post those as well. Because accountability and authenticity and all of that other fun stuff. However, if you want to jump ahead to Lara's 3rd part of the series, feel free to here!